After having gone through some harrowing ordeals in the past couple of weeks....I bring to my 37th year a new perspective on what it's like to be alive. For the first time I feel I have some control over my own destiny, not being hampered by the whims and free fall that I have experienced in the past three years. My discovery of fusion is still on the table in many markets, but I fear my recompense for said discovery has been long in coming, and possibly long to come. I have writhed and railed at my lack of funds for so long that I seem to have forgotten what has put me in this great position I am now in today. That being a full and vigorous lust for life that goes beyond the bounds of monetary value.
I chased after Orthodox Judaism with a zest and vigor many years ago. I wanted to absorb every detail and every bit of wisdom that I could. For seven years I dedicated my self to getting better as a person and shoring up the defects that were present in my character Now a player on the world stage I am still searching for what satisfies me, and that may be only the love and loves of my life, together with outrageous fortune.
I believe my time is coming and that I will not longer feel the sting of being under privileged and poor. With my lack of monetary resources there is a certain humility, but I would not give up wealth to try and immitate the life of a perfectly righteous individual. I still have my faults, but I believe with God's help and my own immutable perseverance I will realize my dreams this year and for many years to come. This 37th birthday finds me happy and healthy, with wisdom and fortune on their way....
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