Botched But Not Bothered

  Some would say that the transient force of energy that runs through human bodies can be manipulated and predetermined by the haphazard use of street drugs or by the manipulating minds of the scientific community. My first encounter with my own outwardly reaching force of my mind coupled with my body came because of my desire to use such force.  I was told by many men, that people did not live outside of their bodies and that such force did not exist. Yet I was determined to find the answer to the questions that plagued my mind and donned the over reaching forces of the movie complexes I frequented as a child.
  My first step in the direction of controlling outer entities with my inner desires was thrust upon my I believe by the United States Navy. I was in a depression at the University of Michigan not knowing where to go or what to do with my goals and desires. I was put on a anti depressant which alleviated some of my wayward thoughts. This medication too also changed my mind chemistry so that the voices I heard from a far seemed to have relevance to my particular situation no matter how far the voices were. I was intrigued at first, more determined to master the control of my thoughts than any thought or hope that they were to over take me. Once inside my brain, I realized these forces or thought patterns were able to be manipulated by the inner workings of my brain.
  The faint hope that these inner forces were able to be mastered belied my naivete with the concept in general. They are called "voices in my head" and are utilized by many in the mental health sector of society. The problem is, such forces are usually far beyond the scope and realm of adherence to any one particular individual's power to overcome them. I have been working thirteen years to control the "voices in my head" and now I have found particular reason to attempt to capitalize on my given power to overcome them.